Child's Play

The word I won’t say lest it scare her off

That sits at the top of my tongue waiting to slide down and out

And when it does the playground will be open to me

Or not.

The word I won’t say because it scares me to say it

To let myself go and leave myself open

To what she says in return

What If the seesaw drops and she is not there on the other end

Other words come easy

I will climb up and over them

Roll with them on the grass

Shout them from the top of the castle

But they are not what I feel

  

I yearn to

not always play alone in the sandpit

I want to take walks to the point and further

To grow up just enough to

At some time stop acting like a child

Gain the courage to say

I love you

But only in some moments

The rest I just want to play on the swings.