Saturday, May 13, 2017

Child's Play

The word I won’t say lest it scare her off
That sits at the top of my tongue waiting to slide down and out
And when it does the playground will be open to me
Or not.

The word I won’t say because it scares me to say it
To let myself go and leave myself open
To what she says in return
What If the seesaw drops and she is not there on the other end

Other words come easy
I will climb up and over them
Roll with them on the grass
Shout them from the top of the castle
But they are not what I feel
I yearn to
not always play alone in the sandpit
I want to take walks to the point and further
To grow up just enough to
At some time stop acting like a child
Gain the courage to say

I love you

But only in some moments
The rest I just want to play on the swings.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

I want nothing from you world.

I want nothing from you world.

No sour grapes sold before their time.
No old avocados brown when opened.
No irate tellers who are there to give me my money at the bank.
I don’t want sad service in a restaurant,
Or overly happy people selling me insurance I know I don’t need.
The sun that shines to hard.
The winter chill that makes me not want to get up.
What you gave me,
Equally, you take away.
Why is everything an example to me of that which I am going to lose

I want nothing from you world

Are women so different than men that they can say, you’ve got me now you don’t?
Why should we gamble when the odds mean we are going to lose?
Does every morning have a forecast for rain?
Because if it did, that’s what we would expect.
Then when the sun came out, it would be a surprise.
But how many of those can we expect to get,
In a river that flows downstream,
In a tide that always seems to be out.

I want nothing from you world because,
when I get a surprise,
I want it to be. 


Sunday, February 26, 2017

Western Park.

It’s a deafening roar the cicadas shuffle, echoing out across Western Park..
Here in nature's morning, I expected silence, away from the cities drone.
What I got was Gaia shouting louder than cars.
 A ball of fluff rides the breeze across in front of me unidentified in its origin,
 maybe a dogs shedding coat, possibly a duvet inner or violence ripped jacket.
 Artificial or not it seems to belong,
 while it still dances just for me.
 But then it settles beside cigarette butts, pie wrappers, and empties.
 The breeze drops letting the acrid smell of urine permeate upwards.
 At this moment the cicadas are alone in claiming back this patch of nature,
 from drunks spoiling exercises the night before.
 Raising the question, Whose park is it anyway?
 Who is  to say that another’s freedom through the dark hours is the use it was
Then the breeze returns, and on it floats away my dancing fluffball.

 Shards of light break through,
 looking all biblical,
 a church shop faded Jesus scene in broken frame,
 The atheist in me laughs that it is him who notices.
 I lay back now looking up at the trees,
 Embracing green mottle jades replacing dancing distortions,
 My glazed eyes little by little seeing clear.
 Reborn I breathe in nature’s fresh desire swimming in each lungful,
and then I expel,
move on and off the seat,
back home and towards other worlds.
Perhaps by night, I may come back for a ciggy and a beer.

                                                                                Kirk Lafferty Feb 2017